The Struggles of Women with PCOS you don't Understand

I was diagnosed that I have a Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS) more than a year ago. It is a condition in which a woman's levels of sex hormones estrogen and progesterone are out of balance. This leads to the growth of ovarian cysts which is benign masses on the ovaries.

While I was waiting for my OB to interpret the result of my ultrasound, I was really scared. There are many questions running through my mind. Do I need to undergo operation? Will I still be able to conceive a child? Why me?

Luckily, I don't have to go an operation since my "babies" in the ovary (I call them babies) are just 0.5-0.9cm small. I am now over a year under medication. There are many changes in me because of my condition that sadly many people does not understand. Women with condition like mine go through struggles. Let me share this with you.

1. I gained wieght - People around me would usually tell me that I'm so fat, I'm getting bigger and bigger. You have to start dieting! Imagine that? I already have this condition and what I get from people around me is rejection. If only I could explain to every single person about my condition. They would understand what I'm going through and maybe they'll stop telling me things about my weight. PCOS makes it easier for me to gain weight and harder for me to lose weight no matter how hard I tried.

2. Treating PCOS is Expensive - I am taking three kinds of medicine to treat my PCOS. One every morning, one every after lunch and one every night. The one I take every night are the most expensive. So imagine that? Plus the diet I need to watch, we all know that healthy foods are expensive and processed food are cheap. Plus my monthly check-up.

3. I have Mood swings - PCOS affects not only my weight or my finances but also my MOOD. I know I'm such a pain in the ass with some people around me. I got irritated so easily and I just can't control it. (I'm sorry guys...)

Those are just some of my struggles. There came a point in my life when I told myself that I'm not gonna let PCOS control my life or define me. I am not alone in this battle. So what I did, I went to the  gym, do yoga, attend Hiitmax and TRX classes. I did lose a little weight which my OB told me that it's an achievement since it's so hard for me with PCOS to lose weight. Now, I have accepted my condition. I told myself PCOS is just a PCOS. It will hinder me to become better but it will not stop me from trying. Afterall, life must go on!